Boob Squishing and Stethoscopes

Really...it's been 6 months since my last mammogram???  I can't believe the time has flown by and now I'm due for yet another booby squishing appointment.  

It's also time for my wonderful annual physical.  Last time I waited five years between physicals and walked out of that office with three medications!   I went from being semi-insurable to totally un-insurable!  Woo hoo.  I guess now I'm just like most of the United States.  

I know my 6 month mammogram is a REALLY good thing if all is clear.  They're re-checking some new lumps that I had to get checked out in December.  They were initially found in June of last year, but the new process is checking them every 6 months and if they show no change, they're not harmful.  So at 6 months there was no change and I'm hoping at 12 months it will be the same.  

As for the annual physical....it's a unfortunate necessity.   I am just hoping and praying that everything has remained the same.   It was enough last year to find out I had PCOS...another wonderful surprise.   I was wondering why it was so hard for me to lose weight and so easy for me to sprout a potential ZZ Top worthy batch of facial hair!

I will keep everyone posted.  Remember your yearly check ups are very important!!!!  It's not the most fun thing to do but it's better to find things out sooner rather than later!

Exciting!

Well we're making the big move.  Today I gave our 30 day notice, I scheduled my service shut offs and even bought some spackle!

I'm excited to see the light at the end of the tunnel.  We have been struggling so much the past few years that it has worn us down.  We're not extravagant folks, but when you can't leave to do ANYTHING because of the budget crunch...you will feel like a prisoner in your own home.

I'm looking forward to paying off some major bills.  That will be nice.

I'm looking forward to doing some fun things with the family.

The hubby will be playing a show at Fantasy Springs in July...which is always nice because we get the free room and some food!  Neither of us are big gamblers, but you can bet I'll be using that pool!  

We're missing our Disneyland passes and hoping that eventually we can afford to get them back! I'm sure Noah feels the same way.

We were even discussing a long needed family trip to see the Grand Canyon.  Hubby has never been there and it's been years for me.  I think it might be fun for the kids.   

Overall, there is hope.  I'm happy, I'm relieved.  I'm excited to be closer to my family.  

Life is good.

Big changes!

So the hubby and I are considering a HUGE move for us.  

We are going to bid Adieu to the OC!

This county is far to expensive to live in when you're on a tight budget. We're far away from family and lot's of family. It's hard to be happy when you can't afford to do anything and worry about even the simplist of things like gas and food.

We're hoping that this will cut our stress and allow us to actually save

for an emergency anything.  It's scary not having an umbrella to depend on.

So we're going to start putting the machine in motion.  It's double the distance for me, but I guess it's worth it in the end.

Wish us luck!

How much can one person take?

Dare I ask that question?

I know I'm not the only one who thinks this is a semi-regular basis, right?  Most days are good days, for the most part...especially after 5.  But when the misery follows me home, I'm ready to crack or run away and hide!

If you don't know me, I am a wife, mother, office manager and many other titles that I could throw in here...including chef, organizer, laundry girl, housekeeper, etc.  My ideal vision of my life is being a stay at home mom, working with my son, growing my own vegetables, cleaning house, baking and cooking.  Perfect!

Instead I work in the craziest office on the planet, with the most special people ever.   My day is literally me being BOMBARDED with emails and calls wanting me to drop everything I'm doing to help someone....like NOW.  I actually don't mind the majority of what I do, I am naturally drawn to helping people.  I enjoy it very much.  BUT (and I mean BUT) there are the people that call in to tell you exactly what YOU should be jumping through hoops to do for THEM, no questions asked.  Unfortunately there are lots of these folks.  They are rude, they are mean and most of all they are persistent.  These are the people that make my job not so fun. Add into this equation and total lack of organization mixed with a bit of A.D.D. and what I like to call "selective forgetfulness".  Oh wait!  I forgot the extra serving of Delusions of Grandeur....it would make a sane person sit in the corner and rock back and fourth.

Today as you can probably tell has been an incredibly difficult day.  Work was busy only to be followed by a financial "surprise" when I got home.  I had a good cry, found a solution and moved on.  I guess that's all I can do because I certainly do not need "Wonky Face" (aka Bell's Palsy) coming back anytime soon.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day...after all it is FRIDAY!!!  Woot Woot!

Children

I think one of the hardest parts of being a mom is letting your children go.   It's just a part of life, but a very difficult one.  

When they're babies, they're so dependent on you.  Without you they can't survive.  Slowly they grow, they begin feeding themselves, walking and finally running.

Soon it's the first day at daycare or at school.  You wave goodbye as they walk away or your heart breaks as they cry for you.  

Before you know it they have their own circle of friends, they have their own style....they want to start using the computer or want a cell phone.  You get the point. 

People often open their eyes WIDE when they realize that I have a 20 year old and a 5 year old.  They gasp and tell me "oh my, you started over!".   Truth is, the baby days are easy.  Toddlerhood is easy.  Even at the preteen stage, they're easy.  

It's when you have NO control anymore that it becomes most difficult.   You have to watch your children move on and witness the successes and failures of their lives.   You hope and pray (lots) that what you taught them growing up will help them make the right decisions, but you just never know.   

My baby boy is easy.  My big baby boy, not so much.  

I've heard the expression that when you have a child it's like your heart is walking around outside of your body.   

That about sums it up

What I wish I was doing today

Maybe this

Or this

even better..

this

As I get older I'm realizing that

making it to the top

making the most money

having the "title"

driving the nicest car

having the biggest house

having the best things...

are the LEAST important things in this life

Our time is limited here and we are not

guaranteed tomorrow.

We need to really savor today and those that we love

What if you didn't have tomorrow?

Makes that work deadline not seem like the MOST important thing, right?

I will be going home and hugging my family.